Lately I have been feeling in a bit of a funk. I don’t know if its because I have been sick, overwhelmed with starting a new job or just over the gloomy winter days but this funk has been lingering longer than I would like.
Then last night as I was on the phone with my little sister I realized something. I am homesick. Like really homesick.
Certain little things lately have triggered these feelings of homesickness that I can’t seem to shake. Maybe by rambling them out I will feel a bit better, or not, but venting things out is always better than holding it in right??
Anyways, you know those times when you are getting ready to go out and you need someone to give you an honest opinion on how you look? Well for me my sisters are who I go to when I need an honest opinion on my looks. No one gives a more honest opinion than a sister.
Funny how something as small as having someone tell me how my hair looks can trigger such strong emotions but lately for me it has and I really miss my sisters.
Another thing that keeps triggering my homesickness, the wind. Since starting my new job I have been riding my bike the 2 miles to and from work. It is a beautiful ride all along the sea but some days the wind is just to much to handle.
It is these times when the wind is blowing me backwards as I petal for all I am worth that I can’t help but think how nice it would be to have the comforts of my car. Then I get sad and stressed even more thinking about what in the world I am going to do with my car sitting back at home. Being an adult is to stressful!
To help distract me on my windy bike rides I watch all the adorable pups people are out walking. One dog in particular is a beautiful golden that reminds me so much of Azora. Everyday when I see this dog I miss Azora even more. One of these days I am going to jump off my bike and give this dog kisses.
Of course H has been working late nights this week giving me more time to myself than I want. I wish I could just call up my old girlfriends and make plans. Instead I spend most evenings alone because I don’t have a solid group of friends yet that I am comfortable to call up at random. I really miss my girlfriends and all our fun girl nights.
Missing your family, dog, friends etc is normal but lately even simple things like laundry and grocery shopping have been homesick triggers. Seriously watching my clothes take forever to dry on our drying rack makes me more homesick than it should. I will never take for granted having a dryer!
Another meltdown caused by clothes, missing my closet back in Oregon! I can’t even count how many times I have thought of something I wanted to wear only to remember that I didn’t bring it with me. I am talking about you black cardigan that I somehow forgot.
When your homesick the only thing you want to do is call home and talk with someone that you love. For me this only makes me feel even more homesick because the time difference makes it hard to communicate with those back at home. I miss my family and since I have been away I feel like I hardly talk to them anymore. Any tips you all have for keeping in touch with those back home?
So there is my random rambling of homesick thoughts. Amazing the power of just venting out all these random thoughts on my little blog here for people that I have never met to read. Blogging is a strange and wonderful thing.
And not to worry I am not turning all negative Nancey you. Sometimes though you just need to get those negative feelings out there because it is not all northern lights and magic up here for me.
The sunset last night was pretty close to magic though.
At the end of the day I have decided there is no way to solve the feelings of homesickness. They happen and you just have to know that everything will be all right. And I feel pretty lucky to get to live somewhere with such amazing sunsets, even if I do feel homesick.
Question of the Day?
How do you deal with homesickness?
